nat bolanos(she/they) //

bloodied, teary-eyed, and scarred…

my grief is messy. it’s a feeling of brokenness. there’s a void, and the emptiness feels vast. it is isolating. there are walls built up that don’t allow anyone in.

grief manifests in many ways, but mine is self destructive, sad, and leaves me feeling lost and hollow. it’s like never being able to return to my old self. there’s a person missing, a future that will never exist, and a flood of broken dreams. i am forever changed by loss.

and although it feels out of reach in my mind, i know underneath all of that pain, that grief is just proof of love - an outpouring of it - and a love that will live forever.


(dedicated to kp)



nat bolanos(she/they) //

bloodied, teary-eyed, and scarred…


my grief is messy. it’s a feeling of brokenness. there’s a void, and the emptiness feels vast. it is isolating. there are walls built up that don’t allow anyone in.


grief manifests in many ways, but mine is self destructive, sad, and leaves me feeling lost and hollow. it’s like never being able to return to my old self. there’s a person missing, a future that will never exist, and a flood of broken dreams. i am forever changed by loss.


and although it feels out of reach in my mind, i know underneath all of that pain, that grief is just proof of love - an outpouring of it - and a love that will live forever.


(dedicated to kp)

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